I would like to report that I have been running regularly, that I have lost a stone in weight and that my diet is super healthy.
However that would be a total lie.
My running is at a serious all time low. My running manual says I need to be motivated and I do have a really good reason to shift this weight but I seem to have lost my running buzz. This extra stone, which could actually be more than a stone but I refuse to weigh is really slowing me down. Recent photos of me out on the road show a definite body shape change that I do not like. All my stats seem to be showing anything but improvement and I am queen of excuses.
No matter how hard I try to make sensible eating choices if I'm consciously watching my food intake I repeatedly find myself just popping into Maccy D's for a treat, having just one (or two) humbugs and rejecting my carefully planned gluten free lunch in favour of a trip to Barry the Baker. A thick slathering of butter on toast for breakfast becomes the mainstay of dark mornings spent snuggled in bed reading on my iPad because it's too cold and dark to get up.
Why am I doing this to myself? I am baffled. Up until not so very many months ago I had been completely tea total for several years, but can I stop now, NO. Not so long back I was running every other day without fail and included proper stretching and everything. Once I was able to stop lifting the fork to my mouth as soon as full was reached. I have to get back to that.
I ran last Saturday's Longrun Parkrun with the lovely Donna. We completed the course in 33 minutes. She has wondered if we can do it in under 30. Oh how I would love to. So there's a challenge and a motivation.
Today I ran after school with Gill. Whilst I was getting ready she managed to enrol a new recruit. Kirsty joined our school team in September, she is young and she has long legs. Gill is also tall, she is older than me but she can run faster than me. Surely being able to keep up with these two has to be another motivation.
I have just 24 days to get myself sorted. I can't say why but it is very important that I do. This is my major motivation I have to succeed. Losing a stone is probably not possible now but I can make a significant difference to the fit of my wardrobe. I have written it so I have to do it.
Please help me.
