Blue Sky Thinking

No idea what that means but as I was running up through the woods this afternoon I was mesmerised by the glimpses of glorious blue peeping through the canopy. It was a perfect afternoon for a mind clearing run and boy did I need a mind clearing run.

I kind of erupted in a massive explosion of anger yesterday. Sadly Mr B bore the brunt of this outpouring. Unfortunately, at one point he suggested I ought to chill a bit, the volcano spewed forth more ugly shouted words accompanied by much foot stamping, with the odd sorry thrown in for good measure to let him know that it was just bad luck that he was in the wrong place at the wrong time to be in the path of this hot and dangerous flow.

Work has been flat out this term, no time to stop for a moment. Mostly this is fine and if you want something doing be sure to ask a busy person to make sure it gets done. But, and it's a big but, there is only so much a person can do and sometimes, just sometimes what you're asking for you could do for yourself. I do love my job, I like very much to be busy, but oh for a space with a lock on the door!

After work things went from bad to worse. I visited my mother in law at the home where she lives. Mr B and me are desperately trying to make life good for her, she has dementia. She can be argumentative and every sentence she speaks starts with no. She can be very rude to the staff and the other people she lives with. Sometimes its very difficult to work out who or what she is talking about. Visits can be very stressful and we're not far into this evil disease yet so anticipate that things can only get worse. It is all too hard. I spent four hours with her, chatting, keeping her company over tea, sorting out with staff yet another infection, fetching and delivering the required prescription and persuading her to take a bath and helping staff so that she would.

I tried extremely hard  driving home to extinguish my negative thoughts of how she continues to dominate our lives. But I failed.

I had a much better day today, off timetable at work to meet and greet candidates arriving for interview.  I spent time with a colleague I rarely get chance to chat with and because the sun was shining I raced home after work to kick off my too high for work posh shoes, pull on my comfy trainers and headed out the door.

Tomorrow is another day...