Inspiration

Today I have been watching the London Marathon. As usual I am full of intention to take part. As usual I am full of reasons why I can't. As usual I fully intend to break down these barriers and perhaps the time has come to actually put my fear s to rest.

So many people overcome their barriers and achieve this dream of mine, hopefully one day soon I will too.

One of my reasons for not taking part is that I really do not think that I could run that far. The furthest I have ever run is 11 km, which is 6.83 miles and I haven't done that for a long time. I do keep trying to go further but Meniere's usually gets in the way of my training, so maybe since Meniere's appears to be in a new phase and has been less intrusive on my life this year maybe this barrier has already been crossed.

I also have a fear of being on my own at the finish line. I actually don't mind how long it would take me to complete, but I would mind if all the crowd had gone home and the traffic had started to join me, that must happen at some point? Of course I would like to do it in a reasonable time. My current running schedule is focussing on trying to improve my times, I am managing to knock some seconds off and indeed this morning's run saw a route completed with a 1 minute and 6 second improvement. If I can just get over the intense nausea that occurs with this extra effort then perhaps this barrier is also being overcome.

A third fear is just how on earth do you get to the right place at the right time and how do you find your partner at the end and what happens if something happens to you along the way, how do you let people know where you are, where are the loos? See problems, problems! I suspect a look on the internet would help with sorting out all of these questions.

I'm going to break this huge conundrum down; I will not be taking part in the London marathon, nor any other marathon next year, but I am aiming to take part in the Taunton Marathon, I wonder if I need to apply yet? I wonder if my dream will come true before I hit 50...

A very big congratulations to each and every competitor in today's Marathon, I take my hat off to you all.